Database: Diary of Cay Ortiz
My concern for Junko grows with each passing day. It's been just over 10 months, and I think the confinement has taken a toll on the both of us. It has exaggerated us. What calmness I had before has turned into torpor. I'm a zombie, easily led by directives from above. A quick tug on my chain is all it takes to move me forward. Junko, as rebellious and single-minded as she was when I first met her, has only grown more vigorous in shaking her shackles. It is only a matter of time before the clanging of our chains grows loud enough to draw the attention of our bosses. I want only to do my job.
Should I report her? A Code Three violation implicates us both. And what implicates me implicates my family as well. I don't know what I would do were I to lose them. And yet I look at Junko and the initiatives she has taken and I cannot help but feel as though I am in the wrong. She is the reckless one, yet why do her actions feel...correct?
Upon her revelation that Abstergo were implementing the AI into the Animus for use on human subjects, I performed an experiment of my own. What if we are mistaken in our worries? What if Junko is simply blowing things out of proportion as she is wont to do? What I found was an abiding calm. A serenity so complete that when I left the simulation, I felt terror. Immediately, I wanted to go back. But in small doses, perhaps this is something that might mollify Junko.
A meditative experience to begin our days, so that we might embark upon our work with clear minds and cooled hearts. Is this what we are asking the AI to do? It strikes me as a much better use case than any mandate to "increase our economic output" and make us more "productive."
But am I opening a door to somewhere dangerous for Junko? Am I outsourcing the therapeutic experience? The healing experience? Am I doing all of this merely to keep us out of trouble? To keep my family safe? In using the Animus this way, would I be committing a transgression worse even than Junko's?
I cannot do nothing.